I managed to pull through the week. Having lesson every night after work was extremely draining. My life seemed to be wrecked with all the work, especially when the Saturday morning and afternoon were eaten up too.
Pimples were surfacing on my face and I could hardly talk much when I was sleepy all day long.
I was and would never be looking forward to the following week, because things would get worse; moreover, my body would not recover in time to absorb all the shit.
It was quite stupid that I had to do work at home once again during weekend. I could have dated my old friends out on the last day before schools start, and it seemed to be predestined.
I wanted so badly to play games but no matter how lousy my mood was, I could only enjoy sitting in front of both the desktop and laptop, together with the television set.
Perhaps, it was good to keep myself occupied with work but I rather I had the time to spend on my websites.
We force on ourselves each time but we never know we are heading toward the wrong direction. In life, we do not analyse enough before taking the first step, and end up making mistakes. We look back and realise what we have done all these while is a mockery.
Nevertheless, every path we take is a learning journey. Through these, we grow up and become smarter human beings.
I had my last two sessions of volleyball because going into exile for another two to three months.
Tuesday began with the badminton game. It was quite fine. Then, we went to West Coast Plaza to have dessert, however, ended up in an awkward situation, dining in a Chinese restaurant. In fact, almost no one felt like eating.
Jingkun, Weitat and I returned to have the volleyball game. On the way, I had a cup of bubble tea, which caused extreme discomfort in my chest, such that I could not breathe properly. In my sprained right ankle, I had one of the worst volleyball days ever. It was a bloody day. Mingfa sent me home after that.
On Thursday, I was doing work alone in the office until evening when everyone started to arrive slowly. The stress of the work and the lack of sleep, together with the sprained ankle did not seem to tie me down. Over a few games, I started to get back some touch of the ball.
The worst thing that I had done was to give up playing together with my teammates so that others could play. Then, I joined another team in the next game and I could almost stroll around. Then, I had to wait outside the court for the next couple of games. The last game was boring.
We went to the Popeye at Singapore Flyer but changed destination to Bedok 85. I had a plate of chicken chop before going home to finish a bowl of fried rice.
Sometimes lunch can be a problem when other colleagues kindly invite you along and your buddies do not want to follow.
You have been working together with your colleagues for so long and it will not be nice to reject their kind offer. You love to mix around with all the kind souls.
You cannot leave your buddies for the other groups since it is not nice to do so because your buddies are the ones who are always there for you.
The great fear is approaching soon again. I seem to have a phobia for everything. I’m doing things that I really hate and sick of.
For the past one and a half year, I do not have long holidays like others. Extra projects boil up my brain. I’m a person who will do creative work if given the free time and I enjoy freedom.
I have neglected my websites so much that I have almost forgotten my dreams, and somehow, I’m beginning to lose myself after stopping the work that I have been doing for more than ten years.
